christmassss :P

This year was a very prosperus year :D
i got some awsome crapppp :D

I gottt.....
-Shower Radio
-Victoria Secret Body Mist
-Bath and Bodyworks Lotion and Body Spray
-Paul Michell Hair Products (they dont test on animals)
-Shit Loads of Makeup
-A candle
-An Ipod Adapter for my Car
-$140 in cash
-A $25 Visa Gift Card
-A snuggie
-Sparkily Hair/Body Spray
-AN HP LAPTOP :D
and moree.....

Ugh

I'm starting to feel like nobody cares anymore.

I'm starting to not care anymore.

I don't even know what I'm striving for anymore.

I don't even know if I'm striving.

I might have already given up.

But i cant tell.

I don't remember.

But then again, I don't remember anything any more.

I'm sick of every ones lies.

I'm sick of my own lies.

I'm tired of the way I'm living.

I want to change.

I want to turn myself around.

But I don't know where to start.

I feel like I've hit rock bottom again.

Grand Memories

1. Running around during a football game doing illegal things :) and making a tofu salad monster with you :D And when we got fancy in my basement and we unintentionally hurt each other :) lol

2. Screaming at people as we drive by :) (also Becca gos ass to mouth :D) and getting crunk in your basement and calling people and going to the park. :) "going to Denny's"

3. Burning a hole threw your shirt and getting lost down town :) and don't forget the crazy scavenger hunt. And why back in the seventh grade, so much crazy shit :).

4. Going to shadows edge, and taco bell and being a crazy stalker :) that night was so much fun :)

5. Going to see you at work :) and Doing shopping cart races, and so many odd things :) i love you dear.

6. Probably one of my favorite lines of all time "ARE YOU PEEING ON ME?!?!" that was a great night, and a couple of days :) lol.

7. Making our faces look funny and running around the block, being weirdos, talking to strangers, and going threw a shitty haunted house :) and watching a movie, it was a grand night.

8. Talking to you on the phone for hours, just about peeing and pooping :) and calling sex lines, just for laughs, :) I miss you. We do need to hang out more often.

If you think one of these is about you :) Ask, or leave a memory in a comment :D

ily guys

Life takes another unexpected turn.

For the better or for the worst, who knows?

I finally realized that this boy, Is not my boy.

I want him to be, but i don't feel like setting

myself up for disappointment anymore.

So i think he should in fact suck a fat wiener :)

Also, I am now a waitress, I now have a job.

I cant wait to start making the moneys,

I really need them :) And for the record

I need a boy. I have a car, a job, and now

i want a boy, find me one? A good one that

wont let me down, one that can support

them self? One that isn't a moronic asshole.

Dose that exist?

Rollin Bones :)

Im starting to feel better,
Im getting over it.
Im not going to let it bother me anymore
Im better than that.
and Im looking forward to hangin out with april on saturday.

Fuck you, not everyone :)
bye.

Hey baby.

"Don't be so hard on yourself.

The name of the game is humiliation

And thanks for your admiration."

I hate her,

I care about you,

and I love him.

and I'm disappointed.

I cant control myself right now

my mind is on an emotional roller coaster.

I just need to vent.

I hate her: because she told me she wouldn't do this to me.

I would be okay with this if she had been completely honest about it,

and not kept it from me and went behind my back for so long.

I feel like I should feel bad, because i was stupid enough to believe her lies

And even now, at her worst time, she's still playing the victim. She's trying to pin

this all on me, like i made her do this. She has a screw loose some where and

that must be why all of her relationships with people end so horribly.

She plays so innocent, like shes really a nice person,

but actually, i didn't really know her until now,

now i know her, for who she really is.

SHE, is a backstabber, and she is not my best friend.

I cant believe myself most of all.

I care about you, and i like you, but now we might actually be able to get together.

fuck her. :)

she can suck a dick.

I love him,

he makes me laugh.

he makes me feel safe when I'm in his arms.

He gives the best hugs

and i hope this doesn't get ruined.

PEOPLE;

I like him again,

Oh shit right?

Not the forbidden one,

The ass hole,

of course,

lol.

Im breaking no promises,

but i think i might break myself.

And P.S.

Dear other boy,

your still an asshole,

that just fucked himself over in the end.

i commend you.

Laugh :)

This = great :)

dumb but funny :) :

There was a blonde who found herself sitting next to a Lawyer on an airplane. The lawyer just kept bugging the blonde wanting her to play a game of intelligence. Finally, the lawyer offered her 10 to 1 odds, and said every time the blonde could not answer one of his questions, she owed him $5, but every time he could not answer hers, he'd give her $50.00. The lawyer figured he could not lose, and the blonde reluctantly accepted.

The lawyer first asked, "What is the distance between the Earth and the nearest star?"

Without saying a word the blonde handed him $5. then the blonde asked, "What goes up a hill with 3 legs and comes back down the hill with 4 legs?"

Well, the lawyer looked puzzled. He took several hours, looking up everything he could on his laptop and even placing numerous air-to-ground phone calls trying to find the answer. Finally, angry and frustrated, he gave up and paid the blonde $50.00

The blonde put the $50 into her purse without comment, but the lawyer insisted, "What is the answer to your question?"

Without saying a word, the blonde handed him $5.

A few ways to annoy people :)

In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sensual massage."

Specify that your drive-through order is "to go." -dont for get, its to go goddamn it!

Inform others that they exist only in your imagination. - Hahaha wtf?

Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with Lysol. -what dick thought of this?

Write the surprise ending to a novel on its first page

hahaha-

A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed.

He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband tells his wife:

"Listen, this guy's an escaped convict, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you."

To which his wife responds: "He wasn't kissing my neck. He wwas whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"

DEAR BOYS:

Im so sick and tired of boys fucking with my mind.

I don't want to be a rebound.

Im not a game.

If you say you like me,

Fucking Mean it.

I cant stand it anymore.

I used to be love struck,

and now I'm just fucked up.

Fuck you; you know who you are.

a note from ashley.

i love katie

she's a sex goddess

her titties make me weep in my pants

her talk of peeing and shitting red and green is hilarious

she's a good, no amazing friend

and she's always there for you

even when youre being a hugggeeee bitch

i love you katie

i cant wait until you suck my nipples

:)

The Perfect Place

I want to run away

from my problems

from people

and from myself.

I want to go to a warm place,

somewhere without issues

I want to go to another state

I want to walk out the front door

and just keep walking

and not stop until i get there

and maybe someday I'll find

That Perfect Place.

I SWEAR

People can be complete dumb asses.

People cant be trusted.

People ruin everything.

People Get in the way.

And I'm going to run them all over with my car.

BOOM.

goddamnit.

Screw all of you.

:)

This Weekend :)

This weekend rocked :)

Me and Hayley had a blast :)

i love you Hayley,

were fart magnets :)

haha.

I had fun at shadows edge with you

And we got to go to taco bell :)

and we were being stalkers, hehe.

with 2 nerds that like potato burritos... and wa was.

then i hung out with Chazly :)

I love her :)

and the other 16 people at her house haha.

Like Jasmine, Tomi, Brittney, Jonah, Alex, Alex Chink,

Zoe, Sara, Ian, David, and so on...

And today i napped a lot,

hung out with Julie and Megan,

we saw the hangover again :)

Its the greatest movie :) haha.

Well i love all of you.

I can finally laugh at you.

Fuck him.

Fuck you.

Fuck everyone.

:)

these tears honey,

are tears of joy.

Fuck People. :)

Dear Everyone,

Posting blogs on people is really immature. :)

Today totally rocked. I didn't let anyone ruin it.

So you should do that too, I had so much fun.

ROLL WITH THE BEST,

AND FUCK THE REST.

Words to live by dear.

Fuck everyone. I love you :)

P.S. Im not stupid, hoe. :)

Retards.

Once again,

people are fucking stupid.

Stop the drama,

if you weren't so damn stupid

i wouldn't have a problem with you.

GET A DAMN BRAIN

(and yes, that came from me)

ha.

I need a damn boyfriend.

Fetch?

:(

I really like this boy.

Im such a stupid girl, god.

He's beautiful, and sweet

and funny as hell,

he knows how to make me smile

and i really like that.

11:11- i wish for you :(

Friends

My friends consume my life.

I love all of you.

So much.

Even when I feel like going to sleep for a couple of months.

I always have time for you.

Hayley: I love you, you’re always there for me. We go threw everything together. We know each other almost too well. And to think it all started when I asked you for a pencil in 8th grade (I miss our chicken dances together) we get along so well. And you forgive me. And I will always forgive you. I love you dearest.

Kiki: You hate it when I call you Akira, but I think it is an amazing name. I love you. We know each other so well bob-shopalopa-dig-dong. I miss the old days J we were rad 7^th graders.

Danielle: I don’t remember how we became friends, but I'm sure fucking glad it happened J we are the dorkiest dorks together and I love it. Were hipper and fun, we get each other, we’ve been friends for a long time, and ill never forget you.

Lauren: Lawreen, I love you, you make me smile, with your nonsense understandable words. (Hydro-synthetic-fantastic balloons) And great times in an Asian bathroom, we can laugh at almost anything together, but at the same time we can understand each other on a different level. Your damn fancy girl J

Alyee: I love you, and I still know you as Alissa just because I've known you for forever. I miss the three musketeers. We had good fun back then, it was a lot less complicated then it is today. I’m really glad were still friends. Truly glad.

Missy: I love you dear J you know just how to make my day. ARE YOU PEEING ON ME? That was great. And then you almost really did pee on me. Ya big baby J haha. We need to go to some more haunted houses together. You make me laugh.

Jasmine Dorau: I love you, you never judge me, threw all of my nerdy ness you still listen to my problems, and you probably give the best advice I know. You know when things are appropriate and you are so understanding. I love you so much, and I do truly love your hair J

Jasmine King: I love you, I remember you from so long ago J and I miss every day of it. We did some crazy ass shit together darling J but you always laugh at my dirty jokes and don’t cringe, even if you want to. Haha. We have so much fun together, we need to play more often.

April Leonard: We used to hang out so often, I miss the time at Valla's pumpkin Patch. That was a great day. We were true dorks together J I remember how dirty and perverted we were together at such a young age. We met in 7^th grade, I don’t know how, but damn it must have been amazing. I love you dear.

Jon: J I love you man, you’re so calm and can even me out but at the same time you’re dirty like me. We’re going to grow old and be dirty old perverts together one day, you’re the best.

Hunter Pabian: You’re a great guy, you make me laugh, and were buddies J. You understand me and you don’t judge me for it. I’m really glad were friends darling. I love you.

Ashley Steele: we’ve known each other for a fucking long ass time J and I'm glad. I think we have the dirtiest minds ever, and I fucking love it. I also love how you rub poop on your nipples for me. It’s great J I love you hun.

Jordy: I love you, we really need to hang out more often, we have so much fun together J you brighten my day. Quack J. Your really sweet and I love your laugh.

Alicia Bryson: we have been through a lot together even if it doesn’t seem like it. We have seen a lot of things together that might have scared us for life (camis basement) haha. Those were great days. I remember the innocent you and I can laugh at how much you, and me have changed. I love you girl.

Brandon Babe: You smell like an orgasm, and I love you J your funny and we have fun together even thou you think I'm a total weirdo J I love it. Angel wings, haha.

Riley Boyle: I miss you. I miss back when we were mini freshman and we would talk dirty to each other. Haha. I miss the dirty letters back in design. I love you. And I'm really glad were friends.

Chazlyn Margritz: I love you, and I always will. We have had a lot of fun times together. And I miss hanging out with you J.

James Zanders: We’ve had a lot of fun together James J I love you we really should hang out, I know where you live, haha. You’re an amazing guy, and you can make me smile.

Cami Kelly: We have been through so fucking much together. I love you. You don’t even know. I miss the fun times in your house, making pancakes, and spin the bottle. Haha. We need to do that some more for sure.

David Lee: I haven’t known you long, but you seem like a super cool guy, Your really nice and your funny as hell. I’m really glad you came to Westside, although it probably really sucks for you J I love you kid.

Egypt: summer school sucked J but you make me smile every day of it J you’re a great girl. You and me should hang out sometime. I love you dear.

Perri: I love you cheese cake. That’s how we met, and it’s the oddest thing I think I have ever done, if not the dirtiest. Haha. I love you J

Chris: I have known you since kindergarten. Those days were the best. I love you J and how you can always make me smile even if I'm sad. You know how much I have changed. And I know how much you have also, we know each other’s stories almost from the beginning.

Tomi: we just met, but you seem like a really cool chick J from mother fucking Detroit bitch J

I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS

Holy Crap.

Today i saw you

and i actually couldn't breathe.

This has never happened to me before.

It was the weirdest thing ever.

You remind me of my past.

and i cant shake the this feeling.

I need you.